have you ever felt...

have you ever felt really confused......
like you think you like someone but just arnt completely sure.

you are friends, and thats all at the moment.

then you start flirting, and things get better.

then one day you end up holding hands, mabey under the table of a restraunt or in the dark theater where no one can really see you.
it gets to the point where him just touching your hand or arm or leg makes shivers run up your spine and heart race, and the feeling of his thumb rubbing your palm is still there for hours after.
and all you want to feel is his fingers inbetween yours again, or the way his finger tips gently glide across your leg back and forth.

but there is also an uneasiness, something that tells you mabey you arnt ready for this.
your friends, this cant happen, it will screw everything up.
you dont want to do this! you cant lose him!

but at the same time the voices inside your head are also screaming, "yes! yes! do it! you want him, you need him, you should go for it!"

but your so confused, and you just dont kno.....

~mysterious mistress